Excuses Excuses - Updated

I'm so blog behind. I don't know if I am going to make time to post everything that is waiting before we have Thanksgiving. If not then oh well. Such is life. Life has been just on the touch of frustrating for me. This week hasn't started out much better and I know it is not going to be much better but there is light at the end of the very narrow tube! Hooray for holiday's. I need to have a break. Last night I laid awake for what seemed like forever. I swear I sometimes wonder if I have some sort of sleeping disorder. There are times, like tonight, that here I am awake and wondering why. Tonight I feel like I just can shut down. Reading hasn't helped nor has counting sheep which is one of my last resorts and usually works, so I sit infront of this blasted computer questioning. Why why why? I would love to blame it on a snoring husband or crying baby. Oh how I wish I could blame it on a crying baby but alas it is just me because there is no baby and Brent rarely snores or if he does he doesn't wake me up. In the morning I will awake feeling like this picture, wanting a Rock Star but not about to give in and get one because once it wears off I'll really be a grouch and dog tired but instead dragging for a good portion of the morning and glad no one is home because they would be the catalyst to set off every bad mood vibe I had inside me. I can't even blame my sleepless night on a nap today because there was no napping for me on this busy day. Oh well like the title says... excuses. Guess I just needed a minute to vent. Maybe that is what I needed to get off my chest to be able to shut my mind down tonight. It's only like 10:30, if I get to sleep by 11 then I'll have at least 7 hours which would be wonderful. Wish me luck!

UPDATE...Last night I didn't sleep well and I did wake up very poorly with a huge headache and out of it BUT I pulled it together and I'm feeling a little better about the world thanks to my dear friend Stephanie who helped me to talk through a few things today and helped me open my tube into a tunnel which still sounds a little dark but at least I can walk through it with head held high instead of peering through it with only my eye. Thanks Steph for always being there to help me see. Anxiety level lowered! Tonight should go better!