Hiatus of Thought

I looked on Google Images to see if I could find an entertaining picture of something to do with a hiatus.  I recommend you don't look!!!

My friends I'm sorry for the hiatus of thought I took between posts.  I had hopes that I would return sooner but then more time passed and I became discouraged about trying to catch up.  I have decided not to try for now but to move forward from this point.  I've done some thinking over the last few months, some concerning this matter and some not, and I've come to some conclusions that I need to put in writing.  They really are more for me than anyone else but I'll share them here so that in retrospect I can remember. 

1. Writing is a good outlet.  When I write, I feel better.  It doesn't matter what I write, who my audience is, or if I even have an audience, it only matters that I write.  It doesn't matter if what I write receives recognition.  Receiving recognition shouldn't and won't be important from now on. 

2. Schedules are important.  I hate being tied down to a schedule but without one I become depressed.  I need consistency to some extent in my life.  I do much better when I know what is coming, what to expect, and when I can mark it off my list. 

3. Depression (mild in my case) stinks!  I am a daughter of my Heavenly Father who loves me and I love Him and there is no reason I should forget that.  In the depths of my self pity Satan convinces me that statement isn't true.  JERK!  (no, no, not me...him)  I have the power to tell him other wise and to smash that little punks head in! (I know, a little violent there.)  I need to remember this.

4. Exercise is not the enemy!  Exercise, no matter how much I ignore it must be dealt with.  By not exercising and not treating my body the way it deserves to be treated I let Satan creep in and tell me again that I'm not a daughter of my Heavenly Father.  JERK!  It's not the actual exercise I loathe so much it's the getting to it.  I need a "round to it" kick in the back side.  

5. The Lord answers prayers.  Four women, three different days, four different answers and one husband that I should have gone to earlier to help me with my depression.  I prayed for help and this week I got it.  Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, and tonight of this past week I was placed in situations that I had set up for my daughter's benefit and they became more for mine than hers.  Thought it was funny how things worked out the way they did but now I see it was all the Lords plan.

Just a quick after thought...The depression I've talked about is not all because my writing and exercising stopped.  There are obviously other factors such as injuries, hormones and situations out of my control just to name a few.  These 5 however are important right now because they are fresh in my mind and because they have been the start to realizing where change needs to be.