Tuesday, January 26, 2010

I the Lord am bound

My dear sweet friend Stephanie has been through and continues to go through an emotional journey, hardship, challenge, call it what you may. The other day she had a DNC, one of two in the last four years. She cannot and will not be able to have any more kids. Her body cannot sustain through an entire pregnancy. As with each loss there are always going to be the steps to healing. These steps are difficult and often long lasting but she is aware of this and is trying to keep her mind open to the spirit however difficult it is. I'm so proud of her. Today we visited for awhile and during our talk anger was brought up as well as the statement, "How could He let this happen?" Actually a few times the statement was brought up. Each time I didn't say anything but instead thought it better just to listen. I could feel the Spirit in the back of my mind screaming at me to tell her that the Lord didn't allow this to happen but that He had no choice because He was bound by law and had to allow it to happen. In my mind however I kept rejecting this thought because she had been so down on herself thinking that maybe it was her faith that was lacking and maybe she did something during her pregnancy to cause this. The fact is that she has a blood issue and her body does not allow her to carry a baby. Finally after the Spirit had banged me over the head I told Steph that I didn't really want to tell her this but that I was going to anyway. I told her that the physical action and decision was hers and Scott's (obviously her husband). I told her that they made the choice by the power of agency that He has given us and that because she did what He told her to do by procreating that He was then bound to allow the laws of nature to take their course. Only in her case nature cannot do what is intended because of her physical makeup. The scripture in D&C 82:10 came to mind during this... I, the Lord, am bound when ye do what I say; but when ye do not what I say, ye have no promise. Often I think we only focus on the spiritual nature of this scripture. I have given this a thought before and I think it applies to much more than our spiritual selves. When the Lord was first creating the earth He had to apply laws to nature as well as to our mortal and spiritual beings. Thus in nature and in our physical beings He is bound to "let" things happen. When ever I hear this scripture I get a mental image of the Lord's hands tied by thick rope behind his back. I know He did not want the people of Haiti to suffer and die but He was bound to "let" nature take it's course. Just as I know He did not want Stephanie to have to lose a second child. It is not in His nature to want us to suffer. I want to add one more thing here. This is my own personal interpretation of this scripture. It is not based on something I heard from a prophet or leader of the church. To me this makes perfect sense. To someone else it might not. What I do know however is that while I was talking with Stephanie today, the Spirit was present. That fact I cannot deny.

2 comments:

Jessica said...

I love reading the things you write! Thanks for sharing your inspiration :)

The Gee Six said...

That was amazing! Thank you for sharing that.

Having faith in Heavenly Father, despite hardships and trials, is always a hard lesson to learn. I really liked your interpretation of the scripture.